Especially when you had created too many memories with the person you loved.

Im not going to deny my feelings.

I did feel hurt 

I did feel sad

I did feel lonely

I did feel angry

But that's all what I HAD. 

I had to turn off my feelings.

In order to move on.

It's not that Im running away from it,

I've faced it, I've felt it.

Now I gotta turn it off so that I wont feel the same thing again.

The consequence I got from this break up is a fear. 

Fear to care. 

I'm afraid to get hurt again. I don't feel like caring at all.

In results I've turned into an A class asshole. To those I love.

It's hard, I must say.

It's hard to move on with life without someone who once meant a world to you.

Without someone whom you shared your everything with.

And when that someone left, he took your everything with him,

Nothing left for you.

You're empty. Every pieces of you were gone.

You died.

I died.

You've stabbed my heart for countless time,

You ripped my heart out off my chest,

You're a killer!

A cold blooded killer!

Dont ask me why Im so cold,

You took the warmth along with you when you left,

And it's hard to retrieve it back.

It's never easy. 

It wont be easy.

Remain strong is my first and last resort.

There's no need to make yourself look pathetic for someone who's given up on you.

I'm not the same me. I shall never be.

This is me.

Im a fucking asshole.

Well hey, you made me.

You've switched on my bad side.

I've sworn a lot lately.

Fuck it.

I dont fucking care if you're going to hate me. 

Or fucking curse me.

I've been hated, I've been insulted, I've been downgraded, I've been hurt to the core that I dont think I can get up again. 

What else could possibly be more worse?

I have to admit, you're a good guy, a kind, soft hearted, polite, intelligent and professional at things. I admired you so much. But I cant deny the fact that you're  an A+++++  in hurting people.

Oh well. Whatever about you.

Im just going to forget you anyway.

You belong to this place, labelled as people in the past.

I will make myself to stop loving you,

I will make myself to not have any reason to miss you.

Just like how I am with those other people in the past.

Yes I know Im a bad person.

There's no need to remind me of that.

Im a horrible person that does bad things to people.

YES I FUCKING KNOW THAT

People who read this may find that Im exaggerating things with my words,

But it's the truth.

This is/was how I really felt.

And this is how I express myself.

Go fuck yourself.