| Posted: Saturday, December 7, 2013 @ 2:40 AM |
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It's not easy to move on from a split up.
Especially when you had created too many memories with the person you loved.
Im not going to deny my feelings.
I did feel hurt
I did feel sad
I did feel lonely
I did feel angry
But that's all what I HAD.
I had to turn off my feelings.
In order to move on.
It's not that Im running away from it,
I've faced it, I've felt it.
Now I gotta turn it off so that I wont feel the same thing again.
The consequence I got from this break up is a fear.
Fear to care.
"There are consequences for those who care."
I'm afraid to get hurt again. I don't feel like caring at all.
In results I've turned into an A class asshole. To those I love.
It's hard, I must say.
It's hard to move on with life without someone who once meant a world to you.
Without someone whom you shared your everything with.
And when that someone left, he took your everything with him,
Nothing left for you.
You're empty. Every pieces of you were gone.
You died.
I died.
You've stabbed my heart for countless time,
You ripped my heart out off my chest,
You're a killer!
A cold blooded killer!
Dont ask me why Im so cold,
You took the warmth along with you when you left,
And it's hard to retrieve it back.
It's never easy.
It wont be easy.
Remain strong is my first and last resort.
There's no need to make yourself look pathetic for someone who's given up on you.
I'm not the same me. I shall never be.
This is me.
Im a fucking asshole.
Well hey, you made me.
You've switched on my bad side.
I've sworn a lot lately.
Fuck it.
I dont fucking care if you're going to hate me.
Or fucking curse me.
I've been hated, I've been insulted, I've been downgraded, I've been hurt to the core that I dont think I can get up again.
What else could possibly be more worse?
I have to admit, you're a good guy, a kind, soft hearted, polite, intelligent and professional at things. I admired you so much. But I cant deny the fact that you're an A+++++ in hurting people.
Oh well. Whatever about you.
Im just going to forget you anyway.
You belong to this place, labelled as people in the past.
I will make myself to stop loving you,
I will make myself to not have any reason to miss you.
Just like how I am with those other people in the past.
Yes I know Im a bad person.
There's no need to remind me of that.
Im a horrible person that does bad things to people.
YES I FUCKING KNOW THAT
People who read this may find that Im exaggerating things with my words,
But it's the truth.
This is/was how I really felt.
And this is how I express myself.
Go fuck yourself.
| Posted: Wednesday, October 16, 2013 @ 8:51 PM |
Went out with my lovely girlfriend, Ilyani today. Had a really good time with her. Had lunch at Sushi King, watched KL Gangster 2, karaoke-ing and window shopping that made us almost buy some stuff. Haha but we manage to restrain ourselves from buying anything.
I wanted to give a review about the movie that I have watched today.
KL Gangster 2 was a goos movie, directed by Syamsul Yusof. No wonder the leakage gives a huge impact on him. The effects were so good that it brought the movie to a whole new level. Some of the scenes were so real till it made me cringe in the cinema while some of it, well let's just say it needs improvement so it won't look too awkward. The fighting movements looks like it was well prepared and most of it have the same patterns.
The Ajib's (Sufi Jikan) words rhymes to anything he said like a poem. Kudos to the script writer. :D
Most of Tailong's (Rosyam Nor) scenes somehow disgusts me. Licking swords, people's wounds, people's sweaty head, raping the girl etc grosssss! Ahaha well maybe it was because he's Rosyam Nor. Ahahaha
Overall the movie was great. I give 4.5 out of 5 stars for the movie. A good Malay movie that not only attracts the Malays but the Chinese as well.
That's it for my movie critique. Ahaha
Here are some of the pictures of me and Yani in the car.
I don't know since when I have dimples. It just appeared. Haha
| Title: Stress-free day!
Posted: Tuesday, August 20, 2013 @ 10:49 PM |
We are the six Psycho Divas!
It was a fun day for us after we answered the Comm Research midterm paper.
We had lunch at Nando's because Bella craved for it.
Then we shop for some stuffs.
I shop for three things; tank top, a pair of shoes and handbag.
Ahahaha
After shopping, we head out to Klebang beach.
That's where we took many photos, crazy ones. Hahaha
Being bitchy and all.
It was really fun to go out with them.
Hope to feel this again. :)
| Posted: Thursday, December 6, 2012 @ 12:17 AM |
| Title: 30 things I love about my boyfriend
Posted: Tuesday, November 20, 2012 @ 11:59 PM |
- He’s a man full of surprises – unpredictable
- He’s like an idea bank - if anyone trying to do something but have no idea on it, you can refer to him. haha
- He always came up with amazing ideas on something
- His sweet words can give diabetes to me but I still like it. Haha
- He always gives me surprises like presents when I don’t expect them.
- He sings with guitar
- His wisdom
- The way he talks about something
- His poetry skill has never ceased to amaze me – Shakespere Malay version perhaps? Haha xD
- His playfulness
- When he gives advices of life
- His logical thinking of doing something
- How he makes me smile
- His voice
- When he scold me over smallest problem, which sometimes I purposely tell him just to listen to him scolding me. Haha
- When he’s being protective like when I walk at the side of the road, he’d ask me to jalan jauh sikit from jalan raya. haha
- How he supports me financially like giving me an emergency RM50. Only use it during emergency
- When he buys me chocolates (something I can hardly resist)
- When he secretly trying to give me something but I found out eventually before he gets to hide it. xD
- When we have unmentioned conversation on Twitter. Dulu je buat macam ni but I still love it till now. haha
- When he first sent an email to me. OMG so cute. Okay this just happened recently. Haha
- When he unexpectedly send me some photos of him being handsome. Haha
- His good morning and good night texts. <3
- His rare compliments. Haha
- When he gives something like a letter to me, I can read it for so many times. Hihi
- Bila dia layan je cravings aku nak makan apa. Hahaha ni paling best. Tapi kalau makanan yang pelik pelik, aku je lah makan dia tak. xD
- When he start planning for our life after marriage like rumah apa semua macam mana. Haha
- Seeing his determination on doing something.
- When he talks about something, some issue with his broad mind, I just love him moreeeee.
- Him staying with me after all the bad things I’ve done. >.<
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My first entry goes to my love. hihi <3
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